Blurred in this era of youth, Who branded the imprinted whom.
said you should have already forgotten it, because I think, for you all this is just a joke. The world's too lonely, too narrow the distance between people, and you steal a look into the depths to my innocence. That is why I so easily fall in your lies. Mu Xin Xin
this year on her birthday that day, the promise of her long-awaited wish. Mother had told her that women in this life is to find a love man married his own. Good housekeeping, had an extraordinary life, a woman is the greatest happiness of life. She also was eager to own that his presence.
watch television every time the heroine, was the hero pet, was the hero love, that scenes of the scenes, she felt miserable. Because she is really not a trace of greed, she just want to have a love of her men, tend to baby her. Just want to have taken her, but belong to her love.
just such a person has not appeared, though she, who had 22 years of age, desire for love that did not appear. Therefore, in this year's birthday wish she promised a want to be happy in a wish.
She always believe in miracles. She did not believe that they are not happy, but their happiness than the average person come to be late. She has been willing to wait for such happiness.
a
last winter has been reluctant to leave. Hovering in the spring of this year, seems to yearn for something.
Although a cluster of a cluster of spring flowers open. Although, white, yellow, pink and so beautiful colors of the flowers well, they are green with a movie, really is a strange beauty. But, the winter winds come one after another wanton. Spring seems to declare something.
It's like the wood at the moment would not forget the past Xin Xin. However, it is not sad, it was not missed. But remained in the hearts of spotted scars.
Speaking of which, time to Xin Xin back to the 21-year-old wood in the winter of that year. Xin Xin is the wood of that year to grow in the year. After high school, because the score is low, also because of the reason you want to escape, wood Yan Xin was a newspaper far away from their homes Vocational College. Displaced went so far, the lonely, lonely, fear, anxiety, these came over in her mind. She began to frantically obsessed with the Internet, she felt the online world is that she wants the world, chaos, dream, she was obsessed with that which would not wake up.
said when opening of her little greed, she has been longing to be loved. She is like such an idiot, a fool, in the illusory network, again and again been deceived, once again, plays addicted. Heart hurt, pain, and tired, broken, wood, the better. She is looking so crazy with crazy crying, the last crazy people who come to comfort their children from the new. However, such madness in the end, how long can sustain, and even she did not know. Because of this insistence, she is really tired tired.
fantasy and reality in the end prove who is who in the real, shed tears, injury to the heart, but also for those who counted the what?
II Xin Xin
the log I was concerned, she did not want to recall the past, no longer dare to recall the past. And coincidentally, in such a time, my tip of the brush began to change rapidly, and thoughts began to become clear, most want to write a story. I think, are probably connected with the disease, she would lend me the text, the tip of the brush with my anger and express their inner desire. Well, I would be happy to cut her out of her story. Comfort her heart be also be healed my heart.
This is just a fiction story, but if not the reality, how would the story. I want to see people who believe the truth of the story, but please do not believe the sadness of life. As long as there is life there will be stories, continuous ups and downs mind time after time.
three
know when a person most likely to indulge it? pain in the heart of wood Yan Xin precipitation, just a strange feeling. Perhaps not know him just a beautiful accident. He called Liu Yue, it is learned later. People online are many and complex. Mu Xin Xin you even can not believe, can you trust a stranger. In the end what is in traction, but she knew the end of the last, I know. I do not know what is added when he began to talk anyway, he is already her friend out. No words to describe the elements he does, hidden, subtle,cheap UGG boots, but it also true with. Wood Xin Xin's words, he is not funny, just love the poor, he does not open, it is very funny, he does not really, but his words can make people believe. Anyway, it is like talking with him, is perhaps the wood like Yan Xin is the kind of feeling.
the beginning, they just have a ride no one's leisure. Later on, chat with him almost a wood Xin Xin's a habit, a desire. The daily chat with him online every day while. Even if he was really rude to talk when you want to talk a few words, do not want to talk to say stay away, he kept acknowledge me. For this, the wood gas Yan Xin really do not have, although we talk in the mouth may, in fact, nothing really mind. She thought that they would continue. But, people are all greedy, he is no exception. She is no exception. Often are so right, know that to want to know a little. He asked her name, she said, and he asked for her phone number,UGG shoes, she said. Even the Spring Festival that year, he said, to follow her, ask her for it? She said, you can.
but he did not know, never said a boy to catch her. She really deeply believed the boy called Liu Yue every word. She even thought that his life has been a little bit close to the spring itself. Some thoughts in the minds of wood to start Yan Xin. She was thinking, Liu Yue is different now, he did not start to ask his name, did not ask their phone number, but does not require video. She felt this point, they are the same bar. Because wood Xin Xin is also very strange friends who hate to ask for their West, and some even requested video. Let those who are despised wood Yan Xin great. Therefore, Liu Yue said the moment to pursue his own wood in the hearts of Yan Xin has convinced the heaven to give her feelings.
So, the little wooden Xin Xin began as the dream like a fool to imagine everything. She was immersed in the dream can not wake up.
Liu Yue began to send text messages to her every day, one,UGGs, two, even five, six ... In fact, the number of trees have not been Xin Xin and Liu Yue will give her a number of text messages a day. Anyway, he made one, she will return one. In this case, wood Yan Xin one hundred twenty monthly free SMS is always sent over a few days early. Xin Xin is for wood, and some feel it should be that in this temperature rise to a gyrus.
say that women are the most soft heart, and I feel wood Xin Xin will be soft-hearted women reached a peak. She said In fact, has fallen in love, right?
I mentioned here, also followed my heart trembling wood Yan Xin. Love, desire but fear. Mu Xin Xin unable to bear so much over and over again. But I have clearly felt that her dependence on him. Love is not feeling the outset, and more from the dependent begin. Used when there is a feeling, leaving would be a pain in my heart.
story continues. Mu Xin Xin not remember, in the end is when Chou Chou Liu wants her music. Ask for pictures as she (Wood Yan Xin's photo). She began to refuse, she is always afraid, afraid of reality too quickly, too afraid to severe injury. Because she always felt, what the story does not always belong to her. She wanted happiness, and always very far away from her. So, she is not, really cold feet. However, Liu Yue refused to talk to him every time they asked her for pictures. She no alternative but to say back, back to you. Said that he needs, she lost. He finally said to her once again when the sentence, said excitedly, Mu Xin Xin's heart good hard, she thought, but was not afraid to do. She may never learn that the initiative.
then only his own initiative, she will be passive to do it.
received his pictures sent by (Liu Yue photo) when the wood Xin Xin do not know whether to laugh or cry. Heart felt weird. Looked at the picture, there is a strange familiarity with the real. This is my feeling. Perhaps this should also be true of wood Xin Xin portrayal of the inner bar.
he made, she only with him, but also with his heart. Took a random distributed to him.
made in the past she would regret it, she was thinking of this decision must be a mistake. And he, long time no words. Xin Xin had to go to other wood, wait for bits and pieces Liu Yue.
about, really long time later. Mu Xin Xin Yue Liu received the information, he said she was naive, and he gave her a piece of the picture. She laughed, a good laugh rampant, first secretly in the heart of the music. He did not know, she like others said she was naive, she was a child the meaning of that childish. He is not be as painful as a child to hurt her. Of course, this is just wishful thinking wood Yan Xin. At least, for him, she can never know his true thoughts.
IV
seems, are still laughs wood Yan Xin's mind remained. But can not tell the sky is bright or dark.
lot of things should not be in the wood Yan Xin imagined it. Yan Xin to take the original wooden words,
night he sent messages to her, talked of what made a few, she did not remember. Only thing I know, they chat, just remember him saying,
she changed her status, she left a message in his room. Such as in goodbye, but also like to retain. She did not know his thoughts, but stubborn in denial, in denial.
However, the next day, he a message to her. But, I do not know why, wood Xin Xin felt sorry for her, this joke can easily open it? She really do not know, do not know their own in the end understand it or not.
do not know the feelings have been very short, or after a change from that faded. SMS Liu music less and less a day, and even one at all. Met online, she ignored him, she did not how to her.
For all this, she did not want to question anything. The network could have been some false things, just a bunch of lonely people playing a game just to avoid loneliness. This game, breach of the rules of the people, only out.
she wanted to escape completely away, but he always will be when she is about to forget him. For him, she did not reject reason. Can not be said of his feeling, hard to explain why so reluctant to give up. Maybe she really just lonely; Perhaps she really wanted him to find her dependence; maybe it really is a kind of love. So. Mu Xin Xin thinking again and again in the fall, and again injured. She did not know that they can to when.
Five
seems to have been the end of the story here. In fact, I would like to tell the wood Yan Xin, told her not to indulge. All these lonely souls looking for comfort, are looking for some soul food for the hungry. Talk about feelings, how to choke thing. Why take your pure heart sinking to participate in this game? I think that she is not understand it, just hard to tell myself not to understand. That would have taken at least hopes, that she can at least tell myself that life is still very good.
we continue off and wood Xin Xin of those things. That year, she was 22 years old. Her desire to once again strengthened. The reality in her eyes more and more cruel, and even tears were too late to flow. Injury as the fog-like, covered with a layer, is wrapped inside of her, in addition to breathing hard, so that they can live, how can she do?
spring blossoms, and thanks, tree leaves left in the show to life. This winter seems to have gone, leaving only a breath of spring. But how long will pause, hot feeling in the step by step approach, the spring seems just a moment away.
such a scene like most of the wood Xin Xin's situation. Reach out and touch the spring ephemeral, there is no way to let the summer.
wood Xin Xin said: it will not play the game, and even forgotten, and he is actually not so familiar.
ah, wood Xin Xin really figured out now. Why should this game seriously.
can be used as just a joke it? So people like me is not just a joke ah. So I cry, I really do not have too many tears flow for you. But, mind had been confused because of you. This, Is is my fault, right?
Six
should be firmly decided to forget it. Liu Yue really long time did not contact wood Xin Xin. Mu Xin Xin said,
day, wood Yan Xin remember very clearly. She and friends together to Internet cafes. She saw him online, but she can not care for him, she was afraid he ignored their own. She has a really good feel less, and she really did not want to lose self-esteem. Because of her pride in there. Small, but has always been her support.
very surprised that he was to her, and he made a video to her request. She did not do too much consideration to accept his request. It was her first time should be carefully and clearly see his face it. However, Wood did not dare look Yan Xin, just glanced hurriedly put sight for elsewhere.
on and a lot of wood are not too concerned about Yan Xin. Because she knows, for him, she really did not Suansha. However, the video turned off the moment he was angry she was.
she would pull him black. However, her heart has been difficult to heal. Watching TV, movies, no interest. Open space to write from a log, as if to express the displeasure of my heart, but like in a final farewell.
I was a child, rub shoulders with you in front of you when I have always been so true, I will not pretend, because I think you are very true, I do not want to cheat, so I started believe. However, why is always the illusion, why is my fault, in the end who is over? Blurred in this young age, and who left who imprinted heart? Why do I start clinging on when you choose to leave? I'm still a child, unable to understand, not to acquire, but can not learn to bear, yes, yes I'm too serious, too serious to believe, I believe that the different meet. I, too serious I believe you. Should know, from the future are to play, I will learn to adapt to forget that rub shoulders. Xin Xin endured
Wood finished it with tears. She did not know why they should get angry, do not know why is so forbear. Just know your heart is in little twitch. However, she does not feel that this is not enough, not enough to let her heart the slightest pain dispersed. So, she made her look, a special but simple way to let him read. She does not need his answer, in fact, she knew what he would not give his answer.
still uncomfortable, head of the patch of dark clouds and it is still reluctant to leave. I can not imagine the state of mind at the time of wood Yan Xin, just tell them when she obviously felt the trembling of the heart. She said,
I think the story ends, the world is nothing but a self-made tragedy more people who play it. It's a story played out every day, more than a wooden Xin Xin staged by the drama, in fact, nothing really. However, the fact is not so.
wood Yan Xin did not know how long the thoughts churning. She even pulled his black little regret, regret that she even cares. If you do not care, would not be so angry, he would not pull the black. Why he will not learn to camouflage.
He also added her, she could not refuse. Only a moment's contemplation, she did not hesitate to add him.
you deleted me.
just a moment made a mistake, this is not added a thing.
Oh.
have also been deleted.
ah?
I deleted the others.
Why delete it?
added even accidentally, will be deleted.
Why?
not friends because of each other, hurt, not enemies because loved each other once. I've written, you did not read it?
not.
Oh.
dialogue here will come to an end. Yan Xin for the wood,UGG boots, such a dialogue, some sad, but the increase in the color. She was thinking, he deleted the man he should love love it. So, she counted Gesha?
why have pursued?
why that big a joke, since it is not love, why say the pursuit?
wood I've seen tears in the eyes Xin Xin, but it always tears in her eyes and round and round, refused to shed stubborn. Is this time, she will have all the faith out; is this time, she will have lost all innocence; that this time, she has learned love can be used when the games. But, before she did not know, so she was the only loser.
seven
I have asked friends, what kind of story is sad. The answer is really a lot, and very rich. However, I think the story did not end the first should not be the most sad.
wood Yan Xin and her story is over here. I think she and his story should not be here to end. But, Wood said Xin Xin do not want to, I do not have the heart to dig her pain. As I even understand the kind of dubious, unclear pain, to bring her in the end is how much damage.
like a madman, wood Yan Xin this girl. Do not know what he was doing, just blindly going forward. Finally, the last, very tired when at rest to know. I sympathize with her plight, and very sorry the world has less points simple.
She can never know the true idea of Liu Yue, and always stick to their own grief.
seems just a love game.
two stage
a person's grief,
interpretation in the end who is this play?
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