Decade of a woman

 A decade of a woman I am not a born
described Cotyledons, and I have talked to say that my text editor way too messy, in fact, I was a simple-minded animals.
And I would like to describe this decade, as the bonsai pot broken long, lush foliage, a headache.
the end, I chose to begin at the beginning, described the process to avoid what I miss, this cruel decade, this crazy decade, there is no permit ignored.
II in 1994, I was 16 years old, Chunhongchibai, bright eyes gaze good.
Li are 16 years old, single fold high nose, thin lips cold thin fingers.
He is my little 3 months 3 weeks plus 3 days.
order book says women than men 3 years, or 3 months, they are destined to struggle. This is years later, I saw the sentence, Thriller.
Li are typical nerd, quiet, dull dull, looks cool. After that I never met a man looks can be described as cold.
he was my classmate, my desk against the wall, close to the windows, every class, I have to wait for Li are left seat, I can go out, He was a big, I always inevitably rubs up against his past behind him, this is my hiding something. sixteen-year-old girl, unwilling to independent of any physical contact with the opposite sex.
happens Li are the boy did not like sports, except to go to the toilet, and calisthenics, he is lying on the desk to write about painting, he Daoteng mathematical problem of the persistent strength surprising. I'm sorry again and again, and Li both said that you let me go out, I would ſ�ڴ�̨�� see in the next class students come and go in the corridor, from time to time, and other students visiting through the window bars as in conversation.
because is the same table, almost all activities are homogeneous groups I and Li, which makes me very angry 16-year-old.
Intellectual in the hands of white as the little girl's hand, when the boy working class can not make, when cleaning often I sweep the six groups, he was sweeping the 2 groups, then I swear I must be the teacher to adjust the seat.
time, boys and girls can not talk too much, otherwise there is puppy love rumors flying in the sky.
I and Li were not rumors. because we rarely talk.
I despise his stiff awkward.
sentimental he could not understand me.
high school year 1, we say if the most is: The Intellectual, let it. he held up pieces, said: Well, good.
extremely bored, I will see them playing chess. do not understand, I would rather abruptly ask: Why is it like want to go sideways? why the horse can not walk straight?
Li old laugh at me all the opponents mentally, and I turned over the supercilious said: I do not know do not ask na?
Li are always very patient to I explain. so fun getting to understand the original chess.
gradually, Li were replaced by my opponent, class bell rang, Li are to work out from the desk in my ear that chess conspire: to kill a bar.
I was fascinated of chess has come to the point of obsessed.
I remember high school 3 years, about a year of free time I have been racing against time and the Intellectual in chess. a story of the rise without warning I and Li Jun, age 16, a pure dream, he wanted to become an international chess master, I want to become a famous writer.
our love would have no intersection, in the end I was dragged into his world, fascinated by chess literature is my dream out the window, which resulted in the hard today, I described.
I did not ask the teacher for a seat, I and Li are actually the same table relationship lasted two years, our class is a dull old man He actually had not been adjusted for two years of my seat.
me and Li are still no rumors mm it is not possible.
race against time because the game of chess, so the cleaning every day at noon and often contradictory Dafan If we clean up together, until to Dafan sure to line up, so finally I and Li have agreed to him the meal, I even have all the meal ticket to him, so he assigned for me. And I am responsible for cleaning duty, and even homework, I'm trained to hand good character, and Li were imitating the font to the point where real ones.
their own job, we need only 15 minutes, then start killing themselves in array will be up.
that When, as if never tire.
often the beginning of the story did not expect to go. As I and Li are, pure fellow chess player relations, but also became a couple rumors.
Who are holding me Li lunch box do? Who I Li operating errors are the same? Who we first bumped heads stay for a noon it?
I and Li are the teacher called the office, I also disagree.
I stared at the toes, listening to the teacher in earnest, listening to both Li and the teacher got angry debate, dizziness, feeling all around in the rotation, there is the feeling of floating.
waved until the teacher said: Well, you Come on.
and I were out of the office for a Li, silently through the long corridors, the pace of a stable, transparent feeling.
around the corner, Li both laughed, he said: too funny. This Operators Taosexinwen it?
17 years old, he backlighting, face down is completed. I left him only 1 meter distance, micro looked up at him, and he looked at me and smiled and smiled and began to face stiff .
all my heart jump, silence at noon on the stairs, he stepped in down and gently pinching my fingers said: You really look good, I love you.
I like the deer run away.
that year, the day that the sun, freeze in my life.
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first year of college, I was thinking of tortured wreck shape.
I love the man, in the distant Guangzhou, 14 hours between us by car, round trip ticket 282.
I and Li have agreed, meet every two months, starting Friday night I am from Wuhan, Saturday morning to Guangzhou, then Zhou On the evening of back to school, went to school on Monday morning. The next time we meet, the small are coming from Guangzhou, and then go back. This back and forth, we have nearly two years running times, in the end, the two of us can be secure In the crowded, dirty sleeping carriage.
last year in the cinema to see , in the back and forth on the train, happy to run around.
We always have lots to talk then, as if every cell should show to each other to see, I went to his school, his female students living in dorm room, he came to my school, my male students living in dormitories. In order to allow their students to be happy that we do not know how much to pay a smiling face, as well as how many people do things.
1998 ��summer vacation, I and Li both have decided not to go home, two people tutor to earn money in exchange for more together.
My birthday is August 8, those days looking for work, almost forgot this things.
birthday the day before, I received a sum of royalties, the number is not small, almost 3 months to maintain my living expenses. I was thrilled. I decided not to tell Li Jun, a direct immediate concern Guangzhou to surprise him.
8 evening of 7, I bought tickets on the train before the phone rang a small all quarters, he heard a cry Hey, I hung up.
sure he was on the line.
Along the way, I was thinking, I stood in his dormitory room door early in the morning, what he should look. and I do not know, that time, Li and I were off in a train, but also against the window, think of a surprise to me.
I do not know what we brush the moment, in which some distance on. But if that day you see two young figure, leaning against the window edge, Tuozhuo Sai happiness laughter, that is, the Intellectual in the age of nineteen and large his girlfriend of three months Shen Yao.
This is our second time passing.
I arrived at the quarters were small, they were told little were to find me, I slumped on the floor, tears.
I went to my dorm janitor called, no answer, no one summer in the quarters. I'll keep playing non-stop the play.
finally came to an impatient voice, and good students that I know, I asked her this morning, there is no one looking for me, she said no, then I heard the phone there are Li Ask her voice, he asked: Students, do you know where the Shen Yao Why?
my students over there, laughing, said: **, movies did not coincidence ah! you waiting for, ah, your boyfriend over here.
Li are just fed a cry, I cry out to wow. janitor's uncle quickly handed me a tissue, I said all I did was to give a small surprise you, how do you go to Wuhan by Well, he said today is your birthday Well, I think early in the morning, and give you a birthday surprise Yeah.
we blame the phone, sorry, I finally decided to wait for him in Canton, he was sitting at the car back to Guangzhou .
my scraps of paper with a face, red-eyes sitting on the steps of the Guangzhou station, did not drop into the rice. Love to the amazing power of big, I have only one wish, that is, wait here, first saw he threw himself into his arms wept.
I then sat blankly, steady stream of people around, I saw the couple actually are, how happy they are, they can have so much time together. < br> night, it marshals came over and said: girl, you are for them to stay or car ah?
Yang Zhelian I said: them to stay in Wuhan to Guangzhou K57. He kind of said: You go to a hotel to sleep, so more Leia.
I shook my head said no, I'm not tired.
he said: Oh, girl, night, few people, dangerous, if you have something to come to me, I'm in the duty room.
Well I hum the nose, said, tears streaming down pulled and crash.
I was standing next to the station on a large pier, wearing a red skirt and white shirt, I'm looking for my little crowd were.
small were held me down from behind in the crowded to kiss me. say I'm sorry, did not accompany me over 19 years old birthday.
I cried not, hands and feet to be numb. grievance tears never seem bent are not stop.
he used it a little cold hand wipe my tears, and finally we all laughed.
I'm like a tap, he said, as tears a twist switch down.
Yes ah, at that time, why there are so many tears to flow?
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fact narrative here, and I still can not find the reason that we separated.
sometimes, love to go, and love There is no reason the same.
In fact, we are apart. junior year, we broke up.
Do not think I was in vain for the story, ask who is willing and who have the courage to love with life itself As the years when the story about the ups and downs?
wrote here, I want to cry to the. but has no tears. I said, no passion of love, like 60-year-old woman, withered * *, and then force-feeding is also not a baby.
my tears, as early as the fall of 1999, drained.
98 in December, the birthday of both small, I went to Guangzhou.
that When I gave the money has been writing for several magazines can pay school fees.
I have bought a great little gift bag, from clothes to socks, from the razor into the toilet water, gifts messy trivial, small but happy to have get choked words. He knows that this fine mind, is love.
night, he and I, as well as several of his classmates went out to dinner, banquet, I found a woman he and his students each run, overlapping dialogue is wonderful, the little all, I have never seen before. I have seen are mild delicate little affection, this joke about the poor blind boy, I am very familiar with.
That is the kind of girls are very talented hearty girl, they actually at the dinner table of a poem. days Kelian Jian, I've already put poetry back behind and then how I learned to , and Li Jun, beginning when he was interested in literature?
them back to You and Tang Wan's > there are some things that I ignore the.
I love Li Jun, love to the bone marrow, I do not see the other one the opposite sex, but also not allow him to see other people look.
I said little all, you are my the world, I have only you, I have no other, I forbid you to leave me, I'll die.
me paranoid, suspicious, self-willed, strong desire to share.
I often have to call in the middle of the night to the small, as long as he The student said he was not, I could not sleep all night, I would have laid hands on him the next day asked endlessly.
I left dinner that night, a man went to the Guangzhou Railway Station to the other car, still sitting in the high high-level side, head resting against the railing.
I'm trying to sort out a clue to four years, I have lost to Li himself. I determined to be sub-micrometer, and he's determined to sub-micrometer to the Finally, I found that he's not all, but I thought it was all.
I am sensitive and depression, hysteria lurking somewhere deep in the bones.
12 months of Guangzhou, during the day and hot, the night was The sting is also cool.
me drowsy and sleep in the Guangzhou station. middle of the night, I was holding up, wake up, throw a slap in the face the past, but were found to be small, he then held me, he was I beat kicking by the bombs, outspoken call him, I was in his bite out of white rows of teeth marks on the wrist. he did not say anything, holding me go fast.
He will hold me straight into the Liuhua station side of a hotel room, throw on the bed. turned his head to have a cry muffled cries.
long silent, I feel chest tightness.
I rushed back in his past V , I murmured: small are, I love you.
he slowly turned around to hug me and kiss my eyes, my pale cheeks and lips.
then, he has to I.
This is our first time, we agreed to stay until the wedding day that day, but we did not.
all natural, we jerky, trembling, fear, excitement, madness.
one night We are again and again, tears, sweating and bleeding.
dawn of time, were holding my hand, slipped from the hotel waiter down side, we stole a piece of linen, then top with I'm at the child's pure blood red.
the summer of 1999 five, I went to Guangzhou, looking for units to prepare for the internship, I began to prepare a small and after one year of life were Shuangsushuangfei.
since the night after , we have not overstepped, we also ridiculous contract, will be the second left to the wedding night. we said this, there is a sacred expression of his face was like really.
I'm in Guangzhou days, was very frustrated, I did not expect to work so hard to find in Guangzhou, day laborers are generally required to be in Cantonese, and I will not, I will fiercely fluent Mandarin and Wuhan, then, is not Cantonese.
me all day were to stay in a small little house I rent a daze. At that time both have a small standard Cantonese. He answered the phone to the side when I looked at him stupidly, like listening to the birds.
I listen to the other side often Couguo is male or female, he smiled and pushed me initially, and later several times, apparently pushed me fiercely.
little crowded and I have single beds when we bear in hold tight, hard to resist the desire to have said little later I Do not come.
small all nodded, kissed my forehead, said: Anyway, I will hold you in this life until death, no later than three- In two years, I can hold.
I cried, tears dripping rub in a small are of the shirt.
day in Guangzhou, is this the sweetest day of 10 years.
day After work, carrying three to two small trees are green vegetables and some cooked food back apron to cook for me, I looked behind him much of his tall figure busy to cry. I cry not eat, He knocked Fanpen singing: the words that person is an iron rice is the meal do not eat steel ah * ah * hunger of panic until I grinned, his timely fed to the food, we have red eyes looking at each other, devour meals, and then kiss, I got a crush his lips, his fascination with my eyes and my neck. Sometimes we walked way, I stopped and said to him: a small all I want you, he hugged me kiss my eyelashes.
crack, also appeared during this period.
I did not find a job, I had plenty of ambition and self-righteous talent, but did not display place, seeing I was in Guangzhou for nearly a month . I was a very vain woman, and I can not stand this laid-back, can not stand this state of limbo feeling. Little said nothing to me all he could to support me, and he intern at Motorola, but also quite popular, often colleagues invited him to party.
every meeting he said that Yao is good with us.
I looked down in silence, I do not want to look at people and I am depressed DW clothing champagne.
I not only my own also self-esteem.
small are getting longer ask for my advice, just give me a pager message, tell me that he had not come back together.
several occasions, the small were very late back, feeling the alcohol. whirring and sleep lying on my side, he did not know I was not asleep.
is midnight, one o'clock that day he came back, I lay muffled, and he softly open the door, take showers pajamas, I Take for turning down his shirt, actually smell a perfume. My heart is like falling into a sudden ice-cold. I sat in the dark room, the brain blank, dull look blankly out the window underneath the moon. < br> are from the bathroom out of a small, dark to bed, probably did not touch me, crying softly Shen Yao, the sofa in the dark corners of my children Bu Zhisheng, he called Shen Yao, you're kidding, the room dark you Be careful about stumbling, talking to touch the light cord, when I adjusted to the darkness, I saw his figure in the move, I stood up and ran fiercely pushed him, he did not stop and fell to the ground.
He thought he and I joked, smiled and got up and pulled bright light, saw me standing unkempt middle of the room, tears bubbling out of Chung.
he looked at me blankly Shen Yao said, how do you? < br> I pointed to his nose, said: Li are you bastard!
him over trying to hold me up, I kicked in the past, then he fell to the ground, he said, how do you Yaoyao?
I stand up, as wolf as the head toward him. I caught him biting him, he stood still, any time I vent. Until the end, I finally tired, down on the bed and fell asleep.
woke up, were standing at the window to see a small smoke cigarettes twinkling in the night. I see him lying on that side of the back and saw the eyes grow dim, he then stood motionless, then finished a cigarette burning Then a point.
was getting white, I get tired, he was standing there, I gently asked him: are small.
he seemed to turn, but fell to the ground splash. I jumped out of bed, rushed him a hug and screamed, and I dragged him to bed, the heart does not move faster to jump the small are, my little all, how he was?
I find shaking phone, I do not know what the dial number, and I shook him, I kissed him, and he does not wake up, my desperate howl paralyzed in bed, I thought were dead small.
been crying so I had to cry cry out to the throat are dumb, no tears, I found both slowly opened his little eyes, he touched my face asked: how do you Shen Yao, and you crying about?
I said hoarsely: Small I thought you were dead.
are tired of small laugh: I'm just tired, I'm sleepy.
I climbed on the bed, climbed into both arms, as the snake wrapped around him, he pat my shoulder, and gradually went back to sleep in the past.
that time, we have that small bed, a full night sleep for two days. We can not afford to tired to the point.
I often think I ever sleep is the most full day.
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I described, it is often caught at the scene, write and go. I began to feel bad that my year. I like a lost little beast, I stumbled, I am extremely upset that I had this nightmare: I was a Dairen catch up, I ran and ran and was found in front of the cliff, I only hesitated for a second to jump down, result I woke up, I still have a little pregnant , I often burst into tears in the middle of the night. I fear that the feelings of a man running, and if someone can take my hand, I will feel safe.
are saying that I like a small weapon, no sheath already a scabbard to wounding.
said this, he looked at me bitterly. He hated my temper, as I deeply love. Love and more hate and more.
the number of times he and I more and more trouble, and I love him to suffocate.
me like a madman, I want more and more.
we fight again, and again embracing sleep times .
summer passed quickly, a small all sent me to the train station, quietly without saying a word.
I'm standing on the platform, to please both hands to pull the small, and he held my hand , casually holding, I could feel his hand and I did not want to. I always face in one second, my temper more for no reason. in the end he was afraid, and he no longer talk to me just give me cooking and washing silent. This day, a man unwilling to continue, but I came to realize that until today has been completely late.
1999 �� 8 30, I had finished all 21 Li birthday, and then at Guangzhou station told me not to us, we should not severely hurt each other is not.
I did not speak, eyes calm and Li are watching, this scene has appeared many times in my dreams, will I woke up, finally become a reality today, as I am helpless and suffering palpable.
Li was carrying all my luggage shoulder, carrying me to buy a big pocket of fruit.
I suddenly feel ridiculous, like a camel Li uniform until now still doing the same for my boyfriend's share of things, but he can break up to say how he should at least bad attitude that expression mean enough, but his gentle look me and pamper at me, a pain than I am forced to satisfactory end. I finally did not hold back, I laughed, clutching his stomach rolling laugh.
Intellectual in the luggage on the ground, said a: Shen Yao, and you stop it, I get tired.
I got up a little bit of luggage carried on the shoulders, the fruit bags across their chests, great strides walk to the car, did not look back .
I then sat in a sleeper hold baggage compartment, dull eyes like an idiot.
a minute before the train, I jumped. I lost all the luggage in the car, and I leaving for a slanting of the backpack, in the crowd were looking for Li, in the end, I despair against the Guangzhou station overpass, the sky is already rotten. I go step by step tottering, and so I had him come to that the station to see him then of course, squatting in his side of the pier, desperate to smoke.
I was standing a meter away from him, so he raised his head, until my feet stood Ma , and he did not rise, I clearly saw the hand of his burning cigarette.
I'm almost fainted in time, he finally stood up, took the body of the ash, then saw me, he walked beside me, drawing, passed through his hands to pull me, I pulled by him, Biliaoyanjing the walk.
he dragged me to the side of the road ride, I asked him: Where are you taking me.
he did not say anything, I said: small are, I'll have to go, I want to go back to Wuhan, I just want to spend your last night. I do not want your pity. Do not.
she spoke I was hysterical, and I waved arm, shouted out: I will not depend on you, I do not jump off the train to depend on you.
futile and I cried, I Didi said: I just forgot you hold me to sleep taste.
him a Louguo me, breathing heavily tearful: Yaoyao, Yaoyao, I love you. I love you.
he is almost caught in the arm in my back our small room, the room was empty.
only a mattress on the bed, and he will be in bed by my life, I like the kiss me, I feel like I should be kissed vomit.
my tears has not so much a person's tears do have some capacity, will one day drain.
his arms around me and kissed me inch by inch, he was like a child crying and asked me to . tears patter off my chest, after so long, I thought I could feel the tears of hot.
we know each other's body, such as a natural act in harmony. I see the flowers in the room with enchanting top bloom was loud and the sound of my nails grasp the small trail of blood stains were on the back.
we desperate to each other on the bare mattress, leaving the last of the passion of my life.
s two days, I am a calm person to the airport, take the first available flight back to Wuhan, it was my first time flying, I decided to go to the Guangzhou Railway Station is not a lifetime. that time, Li are sweet bed to sleep in rental housing mat, arms customary Tanzhao, as if I was still in his arms.
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wrote here, I see this experience to a friend, he did not speak, holding a printout tears while watching his said: In those years, you suffer.
me laugh, I told him that bitter is just beginning, a small all around the day, however hard it is sweet. I own making, I used a rope called the murder of love my love.
back to Wuhan, I lost the pager. moved to the hostel.
small have been to call, I did not answer, I let the students tell him that I had dropped out.
are not small came to Wuhan to find me, I understand he is tired, he tired of my wayward. I want him to, but deliberately let himself forget him, and he bored me, and I repeat itself self-esteem, I will not Sipilailian to find him . not.
20 days have passed, I am seriously insomnia, mouth in a long string of bulbs. I almost did not how to eat. I began to resent him.
that morning, I finally get up bed, I lying in bed dormitory, feeling ready to die.
I struggled up and cook a bowl of instant noodles, torn bags I feel like vomiting, instant noodles so I can not stand the taste.
I brought lunch to buy lunch ** , ** he first entered the door, I feel like vomiting.
I came back to the school door to buy a bowl of jelly, put a lot of pepper, and crouched on the finished side of the road gorge.
I Back to the hostel, just something to eat up the Bay, I went to the bathroom, eat something bitter to spit out the whole.
I straightened up, standing on the tap side thought, I was not suffering from Anorexia was?
I went to the hospital, I was told pregnant.
out of the hospital, my feet can not find a way, I almost floating back to the dormitory.
I body, with a life, I fear and sadness.
I never thought I would in 21 years of age, to become a mother.
I was a child, I do not leaning on someone else's day I do not secure chest.
I almost spit out again every morning, my body is not thin. students gradually I hesitated to the child, the child is stubborn in my body more and more the existence of .
after struggling in a sleepless night I decided to leave this child, I love both of Li evolved into the extreme resentment against him, I gave birth to this child, I want to take the child to find him, ask him how willing I am sorry.
I became completely crazy, tormented his children became my tool. I fantasize about countless times with the child looks like his face, standing in front of him, smiled and told him that it was your child and see his pained expression, I would laugh, sharp laugh.
me from October 1999 onwards, became a sheath knife.
I contacted the fastest Shenzhen, a well-known Beer Group, and then write an application to the school in advance to the real October 10, I stood on the streets of Shenzhen, where I work is a big seafood town, I became a beer promoters. I wear large clothes I want to earn in the shortest period of time a sum of money, and then to leave the stomach very up here, find a quiet place to wait for delivery.
Shenzhen from Guangzhou, 2 hours drive from the little I have two hour's drive from where bitter work, even at the cost of guests charming smile, open ambiguous joke, as I like a complete slut in the hands of every penny Jin Jinzuan.
I have to live with violent reaction in early pregnancy, and I vomit every ten minutes into the toilet once.
I shall not see all the yellow things, met on the spit.
feel that I can not describe with words, I said, I am not a description of the Cotyledons, I'm feeling more and more difficult narrative, as an adjective can not express my feelings at that time, I was angry and frustrated, but With a woman born of compassion, I am increasingly distressed life in my belly , in the end I thought, I went to him to find his father, so he was born when a see a generous shoulder. I kept thinking I was a daze.
then, I had no tears.
I give my child to take a lot of names such as carved Shen Shen days, Shen Chao, I like a really young mothers and pregnant women as to the bookstore in the query instructions, I will not stay up all night, I drank a lot of nutrition in the soup, but I'm fat not up, the child around the corner for four months, my stomach actually remains flat, the company still regard me as a young, up and down, like the servants labor, I am a person carrying twelve bottles of beer back and forth, no one knows my waist should not straighten up.
1999 �� 12 25, I'm from the city of Shenzhen, Seafood Carnival fell down the stairs, blood trickling from a high ladder to walk, winding, such as my youth.
I child, not the.
that little life, my youth in my body the only brand of skin carved, then gently Yishuai to died.
I think it's major surgery between the empty room the blue screen behind the high capacity bed, the cool devices stir in my body, I bit his lips tightly, so that the fifty-gynecologist, a loving look at me: boy, you call out it, pain called soon. I did not call, my lips started bleeding, the doctor gave me wipe, she said: a pity, is a boy, fast, five months, but for fall look, do not have to lead off.
She gathered her equipment, said: Do you want to see one?
I desperately shaking his head, and then coma.
wrote here, I collapsed on the same underlying set down, covered with a little effort and no.
me that Shen Yao distressed more and more intense, I do not even think it was five years ago, I, I want your arms out into the winter of 1999, giving a warm hug Yao Shen, let her sleep in my arms a sweet sleep.
how I come over? how I bury the past? Or I'm just writing a story, the story of a false blood flowing?
can I clearly see the weak Shen Yao out of the hospital door, carrying a simple luggage. She saw the door in the hospital surrounded by a group of people playing chess, she Couguo see, there are like five years ago, high school, between classes, she looked at Baba and Li are people playing chess, she squatted street, the solution of a chess game, won the fifty dollars, she held it fifty yuan would like: small are you in my life hidden in the end how much ah next? I was still there the ability to make money by you!
I went back to the hostel, before we know who are heard throughout the hotel I do unmarried pregnant, I was fired. I look at the others to pack up in your head held high, I not stay.
I took out the savings account and all the money went to the Guangzhou Railway Station, purchase tickets, call my friend to let her bread to Wuhan to meet me, and then on the left hand 2 dollars, I not hungry, I bought a piece of melon with a bamboo stick stuck.
I look like a disheveled, like migrant workers in Guangzhou station stood, my Guangzhou, Guangzhou, my station, I am sad all past events station in Guangzhou.
mind when I thought, was a beggar melon grab over. learning. I hungry on the train and sleep. I have been sad to numb.
to Wuhan Time , see the bread took her first move was to run to the noodle shop. bread tears in my eyes looking at me eat two bowls of ramen pull Rights, she holds my hands red with cold rub, Wuhan, is already filled snow I wear thin jacket, his face full of frozen goose bumps.
bread and my classmates for 10 years, I did not hide her, she is my only girlfriend, but I am all in Guangzhou, she do not know all the people do not know, I like cancer patients, like hiding from me, the most fatal injuries.
bread I got her to shelter, she was already at work, and rented the house is a single room neat, but also warm, the room was filled with a touch of floral, reveals a warm house.
she stuffed into my purse money, a thick wad, and then to propose a pocket, which is a beautiful coat.
I do not, I said.
She looked into my eyes, Tears said: Yaoyao, starting today, you have to be live for themselves ...